Distance make the Heart grow fonder??

Its 7.30 in the morning and I have not slept. I'm having such an irritating stomach ache. I dunno what I ate but its getting to me. Damn..these past few months I've been getting constant diarrhea and its annoying. My stomach is getting too sensitive for food. Oh God..I hope not. I love food. If you see me in real life..you'll understand how I got the way I look.

Anyways..that's not what I wanna whine about.

Last night, I followed my younger brother to send his best bud to the airport. I know the friend so that is why I tagged along. Kinda weird to see how my brother and his friend got close because somehow I played a role in them getting close. So it was really fate that step into play.

So as I was standing at the airport looking at my brother's sad face, I realize that I know what he's going through. Couple of my closest friends are or had gone off to UK for studies. It really makes me sad because I hate the fact I can't just call them up to hang or to talk. It will take time and money just to communicate with them which totally sucks. I have another close friend who's family lives on the other side of Malaysia (the Borneo island part) and that sucks as well because I gotta wait for her to come back.

In true 'brat' fashion, I don't want them to leave or stay far away. I prefer them in close proximity. At least half an hour away. Eventhough we all don't hang out everyday but the fact you know they are nearby when you feel like running away from your crazy world, it makes me feel comfortable. I also know that they are away for a purpose, whether it is family or their studies. But c'mon... I hate the distance. I live in Malaysia, do you think it's easy to just jet off to UK whenever I feel like it. First of all, I don't got the moolahs and lastly, the economy is in the crapper so for me to waste my money on travelling, it will just be a dumb move. So how??

I gotta be supportive of them because I love and care for them. And I do have some other close friends still around. But it is much nicer when the whole group is together. Man..I sound like I'm in high school. But you guys get it right? When you all are together, you can do lots of thing without thinking that someone is gonna be missing out.

Anyways, I guess the distance does make the heart grows fonder. I just gotta wait it out.

To my brother, distance friendship is hard, but you gotta remember that if you do love your friend, you will know in your heart that he/she will come back to you.

Continue to whine till the next time.

XoXo

To the man who breaks my heart everytime

You can be such a bastard, yet I love you
You can be cruel and yet I still love you
You can be pig headed and I wanna be with you
You can be a liar and I still wanna be with you

Why?????

I let my heart hurt everytime you say "I can't see you"
I let my voice hurt after I scream at the top of my voice
I let my knees tremble when I do get to see you
I let my eyes tear up when you say goodbye


I hate you for what you've done to me.


I've become cynical
I've become annoying
I've become self righteous
I've become scorned
I've become neurotic
I've become self-conscious

Yet I still love you

And when you said "You don't need to wait for me"

I WILL ALWAYS WAIT FOR YOU....always and forever.

Sometimes I just want to give up everything that I've worked for between us
Because you don't give in
You don't let me in

Sometimes I think I'm better off with someone else
Someone who will love me the way I deserve to be loved
Someone who will love me the way I am

Sometimes I think what would've happen if I didn't say what I've said that night 4 years ago.
Will you and I still be together?
Will you and I be in some sort of rut?
Will you and I be happy now?

Sometimes I wonder.....Are you still worth it?
I defend you when people say you're not
I put a smile on my face and say "I'm okay with him"
When clearly I am not.

Sometimes I wonder..Why am I jealous of those girls who you are close too?
You wanna know why?
Its because I'm afraid of losing you to them.
I'm afraid that one day you realize they are better than me.
I'm afraid you will realize they are the one for you.


Do you know that when I don't hear any news from you, you make me wonder..
"Is he okay?"
"Is he feeling well?"
"Is he safe somewhere?"
"Is he dead?"

If I didn't pick up the phone and make an effort to call, I will probably never know what has happened to you.


I hate feeling this way. And I hate thinking about you this way.

So are you worth it?

The answer is Yes.

I, probably 90% of time, hate your guts but that 10%.....

You make me laugh
You make me smile
You make me stand up for what I believe in
You make me be tough when things get bad
You make me feel safe
You make me feel proud for what I want out of my life
You supported me for whatever decisions I have made, good and bad
but most importantly....
You made me feel wanted and you accepted me for me.
You loved every inched of me
and You never judged me and what my family has gone through.
You endured those nagging calls and those tearful calls.
And you loved me eventhough I've made accusations that you didn't.

I do sometime think that you deserve someone less crazy than me.

But just remember this,

You will never find someone who challenges you
You will never find someone who stands up for you
You will never find someone who stands by you
You will never find someone who will drop everything just to be there for you
And you will never find someone who loves you they way I loved you

So, Mr. Rockstar, in spite of the my anger and disappointment

I will always love you
I will always be there for you
I will always wanna be with you
and I will always wait for you

I will wait for you

So please, let me get glimpses of your heart and soul as I did for you.

I love you

The Passing of a Legend

(January 1925-September 2008)


It saddens me to inform you guys that Paul Newman has passed away yesterday. He was 83 years old.

I'm not his biggest fan but I am an admirer of his efforts outside the Hollywood industry.
A philanthropist, race car enthusiast and all around good guy, you can say that everyone knew who he was even if you haven't watched his movies. Some of you may know him through his movies like the famous cowboy movie "Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid" and some may know him from his food products like Newman's Own Popcorn. From his brand of Newman's Own, the profits will go to various charity. Now..who does that nowadays?? Very little.

Another thing I admirer him for is his marriage to Joanne Woodward, another Hollywood actress. Eventhough he was married before, but his marriage to her lasted 50 years!!!! Hello.. in Hollywood, marriage means nothing but he manages to stand by her side till his death. Another feat in Hollywood. I can only imagine what Mrs. Newman is feeling right now. Gosh.. too heartbreaking to think. The Tinseltown resident should live by these words said by 'Butch' about his marriage to Joanne Woodward, "Why go out for hamburger when you have steak at home?". Get that?? Love that quote.

Anyways..Hollywood lost its, probably, one of the last great actors ever. He will be sorely missed.


I think I'm going to cry this coming Academy Awards when they show the memoriam montage.
: (

Till the next post..adios.

Out with the Old..In with the New

FINALLY!!!!!

I have slaved my fingers and brain into figuring this world of xml and html and all that crap and it is finally here...MY NEW LAYOUT... yippeee

YOU LIKE????

Well I like it. It kinda sets the mood of total thinking mode and a little mystery. I had another template in mind but that went to the crapper. Oh well...maybe one day when I can master the fine art of xml and all that, maybe I will use that other one. In the mean time...feast your eyes on my new blog.

Another change I made is the title and my web address. I was thinking what will be a suitable title to use to have people be more intrigued and here is the list of choices I made:

1- Fashion Slave- since I love clothes, thought the blog can be more focused on fashion.
2-Mrs. Wentworth Miller- I love the man..'nuf said.
3-Fikiran Melampau- It means "Exaggerated Thoughts" (i think) in Malay
4-Mental Masturbation- For you dirty people out there, this is not a pornographic term as it seems. This term basically means a mind that over thinks.
5-Vintage Voice- I'm very vintage, bohemian inspired person. Whether it has to do with the clothes I wear or the stuff I used, I like to feel old-worldly.

and many more...

What made me choose "The Whiny Brat" is because it is a honest term for me. Yes, I'm whiny and I am a brat. But who gives a shit. At least I'm aware of it and know how step out of my comfort zone. (woahhh...a little too deep there)

So there you have it folks..My new Blog and its new url: http://www.thewhinybrat.blogspot.com. Hopefully after this I'll be more inspired to write and update you guys more. So do visit more often okay...

Till the next post..adios!!!

Wait for it!!!!!!

Hello reader...

As it is obvious, its been moooooooooooonnnths since i've blogged. Too many has happened and to many reasons why I haven't blogged.

Well...now I'll start a policy where..when I feel like blogging..I'll blog. But I won't deprive you people too long ( as if there is many of you out there who will read this : P ). Cuz seriously, what's the point of having a blog when you don't type anything.

Anyway..now I'm planning to revamp this blog to capture more readers so like my title says.. wait for it. Still shopping around for a good background and widgets to add to my page. Got one but this bloody blogger editing thingy is giving me headache. Therefore..you guys gotta wait. Okay?

Peace out.

Check you guys later.

Pro at Procrastinating

Oh God... I'm such a lazy a** effer. I can't even update my blog.

I'm trying to be devoted to this but I seem to be soooo lazy at updating.

I have soooooo much to say and type but noooooo...NADA... nothing. Gosh.. I visit my friend's blog all the time but I can't even update my own little blog.

I need to STOP this procrastinating...but...I'm Lazy.. You can say I'm the Head of the ProcrastiNATION.

But...honestly..what's the point. YOU (whoever you are) are probably the only one reading this right now. I don't have any LOYAL readers. But who can blame them..there is nothing to read here except for my old post.

Too bad I don't do this for money like some of my fellow bloggers. At least I'll be more motivated. Hmmmm....but like seriously...what's the point??? My blog won't be updated as often. FUCKKKKKK!!!!!! (sorry if that offended you..I can swear like a sailor sometime.. :P)



Oh well...Reader....pray for me so maybe I have the strength to write something tomorrow.


Till then...(whenever that'll may be)


XoXo

In all Honesty (A Tag)

Tagged by Shemah

The Rules; simple:

1. Be honest with your answers
2. Answer ALL q's!
3. Please re-post the q’s. (just copy & paste lah)
4. Name and link the person who tagged you.
5. Tag 5 other friends

Here Goes:
1. Rate your life from 1-10 (1 being very miserable)
A: Right now..5

2. Is your hair long or short?
A: Kinda long but desperately needs a trim.

3. Do you have many real friends?
A:Nope..just a few. I don't need a lot.

4. Name friends you last hung out with?
A: Yanti from college

5. Do you love chicken?
A: As food, Yes but the real thing...No. I am afraid of birds.

6. Last three drinks you had?
A: Water, Tea and Apple Juice

7. Do you eat fish?
A: Yes..indeedio..hehe

8. Do people mispronounce or spell your name incorrectly?
A: Sometimes. When I lived in the States, they pronounced it as "A-liar"..true story. Some people mis-spelled my name. Sometimes its 'Aliya' or 'Aliyah' or 'Aleeya'. Its just 4 simple letters 'Alia'.

9. Who was the last person you hugged?
A: Yanti

10. Last guy you think about?
A: hmmm...will not say.

11. Any food that made you smile today?
A: My mama cooked my fave today..Daging masak kicap (Beef with Soy Sauce)

12. Name one thing you have in common with your friends?
A: We know how to have a good laugh. :)

13. Do you trust your friends?
A: Some..not all.

14. How old will you be in five years?
A: 28 and hopefully where I wanna be, married and have a career.

15. Do you believe in love?
A: I do..but it has failed me so many times so that faith is starting to fade.

16. Except for family and friends, who are you in love with?
A: No one.

17. Do you honestly believe you have found the right guy/girl?
A: Currently...I have no one so that's the story of my life.

18. Are you someone's best friend?
A: I am my own best friend and my own enemy.

19. Do you love music?
A: Yes.

20. Last song you listened to?
A: Corner of your heart-Ingrid Michaelson.

21. What's the instrument you wish you were able to play
A: The guitar or the violin

22. Who was the last person you talked to?
A: My brother, Hilmi.

23. Who was the last person to call you?
A: My sister, Leena.

24. Would you consider yourself a worrier?
A: All the time.

25. Do you consider yourself as a happy person?
A: Insecure and cynical..thats more me. Happy is too general.

26. Do you believe in saving yourself for marriage?
A: Well...I understand the idea but we have urges so yea..no judgment.

27. Last person that pissed you off?
A: I will not say.

28. From whom have you missed the most calls in the last 5 days?
A: My sister, Qilah.

29. Who's the first person you call when you're having a bad day?
A: Either my brother, Hilmi or one of my friends.

30. Last person who made you laugh like crazy?
A: Monk from the tv show of the same name.

31. Who's your greatest inspiration in life?
A: My parents and Angelina Jolie (yea..I really like..is that a problem?)hehe

32. Are you a good guesser?
A: Not really.

33. Who was the last person to sing your current favorite song and what song?
A: Myself and Sensual Seduction...lol

34. Who makes you laugh the most?
A: No one specific.

35. What have you been telling yourself lately?
A: To be more relax and focus

I got no one to tag so whoever is reading and has not done this...you are welcome to do so.

Under Construction

Hello reader(s),

Currently, I'm updating my blog for viewing pleasure so don't be surprise that everytime you come here..the layout is changed.

I'm still working on it as I'm still new at this whole blogsphere.

Till then,

XoXo

25 Days Later

My my..I haven't typed anything on my blog for the past 25 days.

Sorry though as I haven't had any juice in me to write. You can say I'm those lazy bloggers who once in a while writes something. Ughh... I complain that I can't do anything on the net but this..I totally ignore.

Anyways... what has happened to me for the past couple weeks...

1- Celebrated Shakira's B'day (11 May)


It was a total blast. We celebrated it at the posh Twenty-One Kitchen and Bar at Changkat Bukit Bintang, KL. All close friends of Shakira were around so you can say it was a fun group of people. Had couple of awkward moments here and there but that is not important. All I can say..the night was sure hell of a party.

2- Catched couple movies




Had a pleasure to watch Drillbit Taylor and Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian (and I was not alone on both accounts..in case you were wondering). Both movies were ok. I'm not a fan Owen Wilson who was in Drillbit but Tara, a friend of mine, who came to visit for the weekend a week ago wanted to watch it and I went along. As for CoN:Prince Caspian, again..not a fan of the franchise but my younger brother wanted to watch it so badly...so I went along with it. Even though I may sound like I hate both, it was just not my cup of tea.

3- Started class

For those who don't know, I'm currently pursuing my degree in Early Childhood Education in SEGi College. This is my third semester and so far I'm loving the course. I have always wanted to work for something that involves children and I have found it. Its fulfilling. Anyways..you guys will hear more about this in my up coming posts.

4- Shopping spree with my girls

I had a good shopping trip with my girls, Syura and Shakira last Tuesday. First, we went to 0sixnine at SS 15 in Subang Jaya. I didn't expect to shop so quickly as I had my full focus to find a bag that day. But I succumb to the devilish temptation that was in the stores. As some of you might know, I am a accessories freak of nature. I tell everyone that if they want to buy me a present, they can just buy me accessories. It has to be one of kind and does not need to be expensive. I tend to rummage through every store I go to find jewelries and 0sixnine was no exception. I bee lined my way to the jewelry section and I managed to buy two necklaces and a pair of wooden earrings. I also managed to snag a cool sunnies (after much persuasion from Syura..hehe). It was good buy as it was all under RM 100. Cool huh?? Afterwards, we dragged our asses to Sungei Wang, a shopping mecca for the KL-ites. This place has EVERYTHING. It sells great cheap stuff (if you know where to find it). I use to go to this place with my ex cuz he love the place. He usually goes to the IT area and walk around to see some cool stuff. Anyways.. I introduced to the girls this floor above the parking area where not a lot of people know. It usually where all the hipsters and fashion conscience people go to find a good bargain. Its also a place where indie designers set up their shop. I call this place the Harajuku Floor. hehehe. Check it out when you have the time. Just go to the IT floor...find the escalator going up and continue to go up till you see the shops. PS: I did find my bag and I love it. After an exhausting hunt, I settled for my half off bag. Pics will be up soon.

5- Kecik got attack 6 rabid dogs.



In a sad news, my little cat, Kecik, got attack on Saturday morning by 6 rabid dogs. It was just too traumatizing to describe. My dad woke me and brother up saying our cat is being attack. We rushed out of our beds and went to see what happen. Basically, 6 dogs were cornering our cat and attack him senselessly. We chased the dogs away but our cat was weak. We took him and went on a search for a vet. My brother and I were in a frantic search to find the closest but none were open so we settled at the Animal Hospital at Pekeliling in KL. We left him there to get treated and we went back in the afternoon to see the progress. God, the facial expression my brother and I had were indescribable. We saw him lying there on the check up table with scratches and wounded and weak. The Doc told us he had a hernia from all the thrashing and he had a punctured lung and he had to be castrated because his b**** was wounded badly. We were about to cry but the doc said he will be fine. So far, he is gonna be okay. My brother and I are waiting on the edge for the docs call to update us. You see, couple years ago, we had another cat named Kenit who died and we sent him to the same hospital. He died of poison. Maybe something he digested but the whole experience really traumatized us. When my mom got the call from the doc, we were too devastated and we both started crying our eyes out. We just don't want this to happen again. Anyways..if all is well, we can take him home this Tuesday.


After what happen, I've come down with a high fever and kinda bed ridden. My tomorrow plans will be visiting Kecik at the vet so he will know we are gonna be here for him. ( Yes..I know..he is a cat but he means the world to me so I don't care what you think).

Till then....


XoXo

What is this World coming to??

Look what found on YouTube. A 7 year old in the USA caught stealing his Grandma's car and went on a joyride around town with his 7 year old buddy who apparently smoke ciggies.

Just watch.



I bet he did get some whoop ass from his grandma.
The PoPo's want to press charges.
What do you think??
I say not to press charges but send him to some school for juvenile delinquents.